Date: Tue, 11 Feb 1997 18:44:24 -0500 To: Carolyn L Burke
Subject: on the outside now...
i guess i hoped i added something to her emptiness.
i guess we're a bit overrated,=20
as i reflect upon the happenings in this place.
i guess we hit it off.
i wish i could know what they think, those who stare.
those who peer.
some holding back great insight.
some desperately making feeble attempts to understand even the brittlest of semantics.
i am not a person of pretense although i appear to be so
i am not a person of stature although i feel i am one
i am not a person of formality although i crave it...
it took a great many twists and turns to bring me to a place where i understand why i leave the i's small. Yet no matter how lonely or exciting it becomes, it still feels good. press the bar. with honesty comes exciting things behind open doors. without it, those doors don't even exist. and at the very least, getting fat may be incredibly different from what you imagined it would be
and that in and of itself is one of the greatest lessons i have learned here.