Why is this page linked out? I want to offer the choice of privacy to those who are concerned with it.
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So here's my problem. I think Allison is great. And I think she is fucked. She is hiding truths from herself about herself that she someday will find out about herself. I must wait I think for this embrace. Until then, I am merely the antichrist. I am combative. And offensive. And once again evil in some way or other. I am simply not nice enough and not hidden enoguh. She has secrets with and from and about many people.
I don't have dirty laundrey beacuse I continuously wash it at least for my own viewing. A person who has some though canot afford t like me. Flat out and simple.
And so although I like her, I will do too easily too many things that will hurt her. Her self image is of a tough girl. Mine is of a fragile girl. And yet I am tougher in that I cannot be blackmailed through my secrets. I have none.
I think she is wonderful and I think Richard is too. But I cannot see what she sees in him except for the romantic fantasy life he likes to create in his women.